Be Silent

"Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray."~~Author unknown.

Setting your mind free, setting your heart free, isn't the easiest thing to do. We have commitments. We have responsibilities.

Then one day we come close to losing it all. We awaken as if from a deep sleep instead of from near death. The world has changed for us. We still love who we loved before; our favorite thing is still mushed-up ice cream; we still love the lake and hugs and tender words. But something has changed.

Our feelings about life have become more intense. We think reckless thoughts. We want to take chances. We want to be consumed by life instead of watching it from  a distance. We want it all......to experience everything we might have missed before without guilt, and with new passion.

I see new things on my bucket list of life unlived.  I see places I want to go, people with whom I want to spend time. I see a book I want to publish and much, much more. Excuses of time, money and commitments blur my visions.

Should I share these dreams? They have been mine alone, private thoughts that have rested in my brain and my heart, tearing at me, making me wish I could accomplish them, wondering why I have not. Sometimes I want to shout, "This is it! This is my dream!"

But then I realize how foolhardy that sounds, and I keep quiet, avoiding the mocking and criticism that may result. I plod on, silently relishing the things I love, unwilling to tell the tiny strides, waiting for the completion of the task.

Still, the love of these things pulls at me, and I am helpless. I let my mind run free,  the flight of fantasy, the hopes and dreams and daydreams coming to fruition.  Someday.

We have to be silent with our secrets, because once they are shared they are not ours any longer.