Crap!
All the subtly dirty words came to mind, the ones most of us use only to ourselves and never in polite company.
Fubar
Snafu
Sh*t
Son of a biscuit and grandma, too.
DAMN!!!!!
What brought on my tirade of expletives is not important. It only matters that I was beyond upset, on the verge of well-deserved tears and fit to be tied.
I tried so hard, I really did. I was sweet, loving and tender. I kept my hands soft and fragrant. I didn't wear anything where I had to fool with buttons. I was careful.
And still, even with all that gentle sweetness that is me, the unthinkable happened.
I tried to be brave. It was a little speck compared to the cosmos. The loss hit me with far too much power.
I had, after all, seen it the first time some two years ago. Like the proverbial thunderbolt that strikes one and creates a sensation of joy that is almost unbearable, this...this...THING hit me. And now that it is gone, though I know there will be another, the memory is burned into my brain.
I love quickly. I forget slowly. Everything feels different now. I hide. I have lost confidence, even to shake hands.
Woe is me......I'm going to walk into the shop tomorrow and get chastised for my carelessness. I have to be healed before my secret is out.
I broke a nail.
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