Brick #1 Iz Grey

The kid was building with Legos.  His mom said it looked like modern art, and it needed a simple name, like "Brick #1 is grey."

What a great title!

Black and white isn't much fun.  So many things are in shades of grey depending on the surrounding circumstances.  Would you kill? No, of course not...but wait....hurt one of my loved  ones, especially my grandchildren...watch how fast that answer changes.  Do you lie?  No, I don't think so.  Didn't you just say that dress doesn't make her look fat when really it makes her look like a Sumo wrestler? Ah, when it comes to self-preservation, the rules change.

If I hold in my manicured fingers information that will  hurt someone, do I give it up? I'm not talking legal issues here, just moral ones.  What if it will cause more harm than good?  If someone shares an unwanted memory, am I obliged to listen?  If someone is critical of a loved one, how far will I go to keep peace?

The "me" I have found is a peaceful one.  I have decided to surround myself only with those people and things that I enjoy having in my presence.  I will fill my mind with happy thoughts and images.  Sounds child-like, doesn't it?  There's a lot to be said for the innocence of childhood.

I can't have back my youth.  I don't really want it, I guess.  But I would like the have back the innocence of childhood.  I'd like to have the uncomplicated faith of a child.  I'd like to look at everything new, like my granddaughter does, without preconceived notions.  I'd like some of my friendships to start fresh, as they were at the beginning.  I want all the guilt of ice cream and cotton candy absolved. 

If I could go back to childhood, I often said that I'd like to go back knowing what I know now...but I have re-thought that.   Shades of grey and colors are so much more interesting than black and white.  They give life to a sterile world.  I wouldn't want to know what I know now.  I'd want to start from scratch, without ideas of how anything should be.  I'd like to look at everything new, as a child does,  and build it again, block by block.

The first one is grey.